An Open Letter to Talossa and Her People

[Mic’haglh Autófil, SMC EiP]

To the Talossan people:

There are, I believe, a few matters I must divulge to the public regarding my absence over the past few months, both because several of you have asked for an explanation (some more politely than others), but more importantly because of the position to which I was elected as well as the one I had occupied in the previous Government. A position of public trust demands transparency, and as a result of the "transparency deficit" I have run up, allow me to attempt to settle my debt, so to speak.

I know that, at several points in the past, I have made reference to the existence of a Doamnă Autófil. She and I were married in August of 2018, and had been together in some form or another for five years before that. However, we have also been living apart for most of our marriage, largely due to work -- while I still live in Wisconsin, several months after our wedding she was able to finally find a job in her field, with the caveat that it was in Missouri. While this arrangement worked out well for some time -- frequent weekend visits, as well as being reunited from March to October 2020 during the pandemic -- the end result of this story is that last August she informed me that her love for me has died "a long, slow death" and that she no longer wished to be together.

As one can likely imagine, this is not a particularly easy thing to hear from the person with whom one intended to spend their life. I know that quite a few of you among the community's more active members are yourselves married, and I would be concerned if you were to greet such an event in your own life with a nonchalant attitude. What happened next...I guess you could say that I basically shut down. Went through the motions. "Existed", more than "lived", an emotionally catatonic state. A lot of soul-searching, coupled with quite a bit of self-medicating, some of it through healthier methods than others. At a few points, nearly coupled the erasure of a D:na Autófil with the erasure of S:reu Autófil, if I'm going to be painfully open about it. But the light at the end of the tunnel comes, and the sun rises again, and the time has come to attempt to pick up the pieces of the life I once lived, a life that includes an adopted homeland of Green and Red.

I do not tell you some of these more dramatic parts in an attempt to garner pity, but rather because I believe a brutally conspicuous absence deserves a brutally honest explanation, coupled with a brutally sincere apology. And to that end, I know there were quite a few people I frustrated whether in the then-Government, the Opposition, or just the citizenry -- and even the ones I didn't frustrate, I was your Distain too, and so my only request is that you try to forgive me for coping with my personal goings-on in the only way I could really muster. I do not seek excusal, so much as understanding.

Correction: I have a second request. Should you ever find yourself burdened, and you need an ear, seek me out. I know what that pit is like and just how deep it can go, and if I can help even one other person to avoid it, then I would do all I can towards that end.

Should there be other questions I can answer, please do not hesitate to reach out and I will answer them to the best of my ability.


In Amistà, Imrè



Mic'haglh Autófil, MC EiP

[Danihel Txechescu]

Very sorry to read you had to go through that. I wish you better times.

[Mic’haglh Autófil, SMC EiP]

Very sorry to read you had to go through that. I wish you better times.

I appreciate that, thank you. They are improving, day by day, which is all one can ever really ask for.

[Baron Alexandreu Davinescu]

We were sad to see you gone and we're happy to see you back. Welcome back and let us know if there's anything we can do for you to help!

[xpb]

Challenges such as this are significant -- and while this forum may provide a bit of mental health first aid, it is important to consider additional professional therapy to build resilience.  We stand by you on your journey.

[Mic’haglh Autófil, SMC EiP]

Challenges such as this are significant -- and while this forum may provide a bit of mental health first aid, it is important to consider additional professional therapy to build resilience.  We stand by you on your journey.

You may be glad to hear that I am ahead of you on this step, haha.

[Audrada Roibeardet]

That's rough. I'm glad you're back.

[Glüc da Dhi S.H.]

Not much to add to what others have already said, but it's good to see you back indeed! Hopefully things will keep improving for you

[GV]

Sorry about your journey as of late - glad to see you back and sane.